Water…deep blue, bottomless, infinite knowing. Creation, development and the roll of the waves. Flow, expression, touching the deepest part of me.
Yearning, longing for more and not knowing…What? Deep inside, searching for the kingdom. All things added from here!
Nothing means nothing for what we make it mean. Observation in stillness, hearing the noise of the silence. Deafening!
I reach through auditory senses and seek more sound. Why? To find the river beneath. The river of silence beneath the cacophony of noise. A flash of light, emptiness that is full…of nothing and everything. Blindingly beautiful, I see nothing and feel everything. Physicality my friend, my vessel which is my gateway to the outside world! Spirit my gateway to all that is! Omnipotence, omnipresence, infinite!
I buzz! Vibrate quietly. My mouth twists into a mischievous upward tilt. I cannot describe…ahhh wait. Its presence to the now, this very moment. A pirouet, in a white dress, my face shining up to the sun, free…everything shades of white and touches of cerulean blue. Brilliant peace, love and joy! The kind of joy that rolls like a peaceful sea on a calm summers day! Full and gentle and deep and embracing
Its been a very interesting week! Its funny how sometimes I think I’m at the end and really its always the middle until I pass on and then is it really the end? I don’t think so.
Ok so back to the interesting week.
A couple days came like they were in charge and they were…and I did nothing to bring them back under control. Well nothing that worked anyway! Now I see that all as a gift! Ha, imagine that…imagine if we could see every moment as it was as a gift that it is. Thats why its called the present! I loved that the first time I heard it. Now I see it with such gratitude.
So those couple days I felt lost, meaningless, sad and tired. Empty, so tired. It was not desolation but like the life had been sucked out of me and I needed rest.
I thought about what the next step would be. What were my plans? My plans of action to take me in the direction of my worthwhile dream and suddenly, it became not enough! All wrong again and this time I observed! Hmmmm what was this that was going on? Instead of getting caught up in the parade I asked and I watched.Then I remembered, its simple. Its about bringing joy inspiration and beauty to 100,000’s of thousands of peoples lives and all I needed was the next step and I have it. I needed to dive in head first into the ocean of exploration and practice. To become the greatest version of the grandest vision of me in creative expression of music! My expression, given to me by the creator to create space for others to live into their version of the grandest vision of them! Ha, let the day run away with itself and I will watch it chase its tail until it’s done. Like God waits for me until I’m done spinning my wheels and chasing my tail and he smiles!!